The Indomitable Spirit and the LGBTQ Agenda

Hi.  I’m still here somehow…

Since it’s creation, I have struggled to find a true direction for the Indi_Ker twitch streamNo, I’m not about to say that I have given up and it will never have a direction…

Well… I suppose it still doesn’t truly have a direction…

It now has a goal though.  That goal being to actively support multiple charities dealing with human rights, beginning with the National LGBTQ Taskforce.

Ever since realizing I was transgender, I have always felt as if it were too late for me.  Too late to make a change.  Too late to seek help in it.  To late to exist the way I feel I should, or even to exist at all. I am not saying that I was wrong.  I still feel that it is too late for me… to be helped by anyone other than myself directly.  It is not too late to help this nation as a whole, however, and do something to cure the sickness that is discrimination and hate.

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The National LGBTQ Taskforce is about spreading understanding throughout our nation, and a culture of accountability as it comes to treating LGBTQ people as, just that, people.  Now, that is just my basic understanding given a bit of research on them and I endeavor not to explain their entire mission statement for them, but here is what they achieved the last couple of years: tf-annual-report-2015-2016.  Feel free to check out their site here or click the image above for the same!  What I do know is that I really want to help the people who feel as hopeless as I do right now, even if I can’t seem to help myself.  I want the idea that people should be disallowed to work, eat, sleep, or live due to their race, religion, gender/ gender identity, sexual orientation, or anything else inherent to their very being- to end.

People need to realize that there is no normal as it comes to the human condition.

There is the norm, and historically, the norm hasn’t always been such a great thing to be about…

So, what does The National LGBTQ Task Force have to do with my twitch stream?

Nothing…  Not as of yet.  Not until those first donations roll-in.

Hence forth, all donations (every single solitary cent) will go to organizations such as The National LGBTQ Task Force.  I imagine it will take quite a while for donations to begin coming in, but once it does happen, I will begin giving donators to the stream a choice of organizations, as I would like to find one that supports racial equality as its focus next.

As for what I get out of this… I see myself benefiting- along with the entire nation- every time one of these organizations succeeds in one of its goals.  Ultimately, I would like to maybe stream live from some of the events held by the group (this would be entirely self funded.)

The Future of KvG!

As a final note, I would like to drop a list of changes to the focus of the twitch stream:

  • Tickers/ trackers for total donations received, and also a tracker for how much I have personally saved toward certain goals.
  • Possibly being open about certain personal goals related to being transgender.
  • More of a focus on the types of games played.
  • Street Fighter V/ Injustice 2 and general fighting games training in an effort to one day become competitive enough to participate in the tournament scene/ stream from tournaments.  Even if I am not very good, it would be an opportunity to be in a more intimate place with the fighting game scene, and possibly stream/ post chats with those involved- including lesser known participants.
  • Certain RPG’s and sidescrollers because ❤
  • Host small fighting game “get-togethers”, not necessarily for the public at first, but it could grow and become a donation drive benefiting multiple charities.

That is all I’ve got for now.

My vision and focus have shifted, and I can only hope that the world sees fit to give me another chance to see these things done.  If not, so long, farewell, alvitazen, good-bye.  Either way, I feel like I’ve changed yet again, for better or worse.

Until next time, enjoy these State of the Movement addresses found on the National LGBTQ Task Force site.

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Selling T-shirts because… I dunno

Get your Irrevocably Human shirt/ hoodie/ tank top today!

I guess…  If you want.  I dunno.  I thought it looked pretty cool.

irrevocably-human-ad-copy I’d put the prices and everything here if I thought anyone would be interested.  I just thought it was a cool site and wanted to make something.  Voila.  It’s unlikely you’ll hear from me again.

That’s all I’ve got.  Bye.

The Indomitable Spirit and the Ker Bear

Happy Monday.

I’m back today to tell you about a new page on the site, as well as a new campaign I am running.

I’ve done quite a lot of explaining today, so I’ll allow most of these things I have already written to save me the time.  In essence, I’m at the end of my rope.  I have a final spark in me and I am using it to mayhaps light a flame.

Check out what I mean on the new KER v GAMES! page, and furthermore, on the KER v GAMES! GoFundMe page.  Everything is explained there, and I’m just plain exhausted right about now…


What is a Ker?:

In Greek mythology, the Keres /ˈkɪrz/ (Κῆρες), singular Ker /ˈkɜːr/ (Κήρ), were female death-spirits. The Keres were daughters of Nyx, and as such the sisters of beings such as Moirai, who controlled the fate of souls and Thanatos, the god of peaceful death. Some later authorities, such as Cicero, called them by a Latin name, Tenebrae, or the Darknesses, and named them daughters of Erebus and Nyx.  (Taken from Wikipedia.)



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Time for a new short story…

Hello hooligans…

Wait.  Hooligans?  Are you…?  Oh well.  I am here to present, not the next entry in the Rainfall series, but a stand alone short story.  I don’t really have much to say about it.

There is one quick note I will give you: it is not 200 pages.  It wound up being… 5858 words ( 😉 )  The story has multiple endings, and I really prefer that anyone reading not have the ability to just flip page by page through each ending.  Choose an ending, and then go back and choose again via my handy-dandy embedded hyperlinks.  That’s all for this section of the site.

If you’re interested, there may be some photos posted, as well as a new diary entry in The evolution of Hope.  I’m not sure yet.  We’ll see.

Alright.  That’s all for me.  Click through the image below for a free pdf of Catalina(s)!


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The Indomitable Spirit, and the Hard Reset

Hello again, and also for the first time.  I spend most, if not all, of my time thinking.  Throughout the course of this endeavor, I realized that anchorite hope literature needed to go.


For many reasons, not the least of which being that it had no focus.  No true purpose.  A.H. Literature turned out to be little more than a learning exercise.  Of course, there is nothing wrong with that (it helped me to discover a focus,) but that name/ image would not survive the torrential brainstorm which fueled this new endeavor.

The Grounded Kite Initiative

More than an endeavor, TGKI represents a new and better way of thinking.  Better for me, and better for my peace of mind.

Back in junior high, there was one class project which captured my heart and my imagination like no other: building a kite in shop class.  I was so excited.  More than anything, I simply wanted my kite to fly.  It didn’t have to be the best, or the prettiest, it just needed to fly.  Unfortunately, it was not meant to be.

After completing our kites, we were gifted multiple class periods to simply go outside and fly them.  That was the hardest part for me.  It didn’t fly that first day, and so I did what I could to correct my silly mistake so that it would fly the second day.  It did not fly the second day, or the third, or however many days we wound up spending in that field behind the school.  Even so, I never stopped trying to fix that kite, and I never stopped trying to get it aloft.

I call this the indomitable spirit, and it has made my life very difficult.  Frankly, it never occurs to me to give up on a project, no matter how miserable it makes me.  Even if I sink to the furthest depths, I never drown.  After a time, that demonic spirit of mine regenerates and I am ready to fail yet again.  I see myself as pathetic, worthless, talent-less, and even so I can’t seem to make myself stop- at least, not by any of the methods I have attempted thus far.  There’s always another idea with me, and there is always something to fix.

The Hard Reset

My inability to give in to reason has led to a few new things, and possibly a means by which to succor my aching heart:

  • A new image and new mantra for the site.  I have embraced my inability to create anything that is not inherently, and irredeemably, flawed.  This site is now nothing more than a home for all those grounded kites that I have made, and those I will construct well into the future.


  • A new mentality as it comes to the distribution and value of my works.  I have always seen my writing as having no value to anyone other than myself, and there are others that have told me I am incorrect in assuming this.  I have no idea which of us is right, and thus I have come up with a compromise.  Everything I write will be available for free from now on, but only through this site.  If I truly have any value as a writer, the site will get some traffic.  In the future, perhaps I will reboot the patreon page so that it is available for those who also feel my work has some value, but I won’t hold my breath.  I really just desire for someone other that myself to read that which I have written.  Though, sometimes, even a humble wish is one more than you are permitted.


  • I have deleted the @anchoritehope twitter, as well as the ahliterature facebook page, as well as the smashwords page all to tighten the focus of this new… thing.  It makes me very tired to pretend that I am an extrovert when I am- so clearly- something completely else.  It will be hard enough for me to keep this going, let alone build up some online persona more worthless than that which I was born with.


  • The site has been severely streamlined. In the interest of making the purpose of this place clear, everything nonessential has been done away with.  No more modus vivendi posts.  No more hope of growing it as a brand to aid other indies (can’t even help my damn self…)  The proofing idea had already been scrapped and it will not be returning.  No more art gallery- only that which you will see in posts.  The twitch streaming idea is sidelined until it stops being a stupid idea.  The only pages, aside from the main page, will be the library, and the works in progress page.  The latter of which will remain locked until such a time as the patreon idea ceases to be stupid.


  • Content-wise, there will be no more reviews of any kind.  I would much rather enjoy my entertainment media quietly than attempt to indoctrinate others.  I may mention the things I am currently enjoying in passing, but there will never be another post on this site dedicated to some other creators work.  Updates regarding the progress of my own work will be present in Grounded Kite Initiative posts.  The Indomitable Spirit will continue on as a place for random poetry drops, and sharing my latest misadventures as a freak that can’t seem to give up.  The first real TIS post will probably be about the time I almost drowned, and how I was totally okay with it.


I think that’s all I’ve got for now.  If you’ve read this far, I thank you for taking the time.  It really did give me a boost every time I saw that someone even glanced at a post I made on this site, and every comment- I don’t even know.  I don’t expect that anyone will ever read this.  I really don’t expect anyone to care, but that is what The Grounded Kite Initiative is about.  It’s about wanting to be loved even if you don’t deserve it.  It’s about wanted to be recognized even if you’re worthless.


It’s about pushing on, though you’re inherently flawed and leaving a trail of broken pieces in your wake.